Did I mention that I am starting a Power of Eight healing group? As I watched more and more testimonials from Dr. Dispenza, I became increasingly impressed with the number of people who mentioned the powerful experiences and spontaneous healings occurring in healing circles.
So I joined a Facebook group for students of Dr. Dispenza and started asking questions. That led to two things. First I was advised to read Lynn McTaggart’s book, The Power of Eight, which I did and loved. Second, I ended up getting a healing performed virtually by 17 intenders who have attended Dr. Joe Dispenza’s advanced workshops and participated in the Dispenza healing circles at those events.
According to Lynn McTaggart, this would be significant because meditation experience seems to affect the outcome more than the number of ‘intenders’ in the circle. I have to admit that this stuff all sounds sort of crazy to the son of a scientist who was raised as an atheist. But, reading Dr. Dispenza’s book, You Are the Placebo, opened my mind a long way, and that’s how I ended up lying on a massage table in front of my PC as the healee of 17 beautiful souls connected through Zoom videoconferencing.
Prior to this, I had some extraordinary experiences in Dispenza meditations including a vision which led me to a somatic therapist singer-songwriter who opened my heart and mind to attachment theory. I read a great little book about attachment theory and came to understand the root of emotional problems which I believe at least partly caused my lifelong health challenges.
My attachment difficulties left a hardness, an unease and a craving in me, that nothing satisfied for many many decades. That is, until DNRS and Dispenza meditation came along and began to crack me open.
For weeks I anticipated my healing circle as the date on the calendar grew closer, and now it was starting. I lay down after thanking my 17 intenders and listened as their leader started a Dispenza recording which began with the Pineal breath meditation, which I had in fact done myself only hours earlier.
But my role was just to receive, so I did not do the breath. I just listened. The leaders words echoed in my mind “there are 17 of us here today…” and I reflected on the extraordinary idea that 17 people would come together to heal me, a complete stranger. I might have thought about the intentions they were sending me as love broadcast through the quantum field.
At some point early on, I became aware of a ringing in my ears, louder than I had ever experienced and noticed that my fingers were tingling. I thought to myself, “This is real, something is actually happening. It’s as if these meditators are reaching into my body with their intentions and love.”
At the same time I was hearing Dr. Dispenza’s voice urging the meditators on and his voice spoke to me also: “Fall in love with the moment, come on, let it consume you!” With all these things happening at the same time, I was overwhelmed. My body and mind were convulsing together as if I had my finger stuck in an electrical outlet. I sweat which made me cold (the room was warm so I had a fan on) and I trembled a little from this also.
This lasted for around 18 minutes when Dr. Dispenza says “And now embrace your healee, and exchange energy.” This surprised me greatly because it sounded as if the meditators were not sending me energy previously while I was going through this deep catharsis (or whatever you want to call it).
From this point forward, meditation music played for around 15 minutes during which I felt like I was floating on a cloud basking in the sun. And then it ended.
Over the next couple days I found my healing crisis had escalated several notches. It felt to me like something earthshaking had happened, maybe one of the most important experiences of my life. As time goes by, I have wondered if these 17 souls filled up the burning hole in me that has ruled my life for so long. I felt different. I felt emotionally healed, but I was also in a deep physical healing crisis, so as good as it was, there was also this haze around everything, that I could only attempt to peer through.
My DNRS practice has become so enriched that often the past and future memories seem irrelevant because I am quickly lost in ecstasy before I get to that part… I also ran a family healing circle for my daughter and LOVED it so much, I wish we could do it every day.
Since my virtual healing, I’ve also been the healee in two in-person healing circles, one sitting upright in a chair holding hands and the second lying on the floor with the healers around me. Sitting upright, I had a very warm pleasant experience but lying down my body again went berserk, bouncing, jerking and twitching as it did in my virtual healing. I should add that this hasn’t happened to anyone else in my healing circles, though our healees have reported significant and moving experiences every time.
My second ‘finger in the electrical outlet’ healing tells me that my experience on the massage table with the 17, was probably not related to the intense Dispenza meditation that I heard on that occasion. That’s because lying in my home during my most recent healee experience, we used a very short and gentle audio. My body seems to be reacting instead to the intentions of the group.
As overwhelming as it is, I’m sure it’s a healing response and I’m confident my body hasn’t finished it’s work yet – there’s more to come. After each healing, I experience a Candida release over the next few days. I wish I could say that it feels like I’m on the verge of a big improvement in sleep and energy, and there are days when it feels true, but right now, I have to fall back on ‘forward is forward’ and honor the pace of my recovery as my own.