If you suffer with chronic illness, by definition you’re stuck in a vicious cycle. Some imbalance is causing a disruption which further worsens the imbalance that triggered the disruption. And you go around in circles.
For example, let’s say you’re low in magnesium or calcium which causes insomnia which triggers a cascade of other insults to your health. To get well, you need to break the vicious cycle and turn it into a virtuous one. I’ve trying to stay focused at identifying and doing what I needed to do to break the vicious cycle over the years.
Various steps I’ve taken over the years in rough chronological order:
- stop drinking alcohol
- stop eating sugars
- stop eating processed food, start eating whole foods
- natural cortisol supplementation eventually replaced by hydrocortisone
- stop eating fruit, stop eating grains
- focus on sleep – bipap machine, sleep in pitch black room with earplugs, then sleep on my side without bipap and tape mouth shut
- hair testing
- methylation support
- ozone therapy
- liver flushing
- copper detox protocol and nutritional balancing science
- colon cleansing / irrigation
- long term fenbendazole
- coffee enema
I always push my therapy very hard but could never go all away with anything because of the need to support my family and hold it together. Were I not an entrepreneur running my own business, I’d have been fired very early on and maybe that would’ve been a good thing. Instead I managed to keep all the balls in the air for nearly 14 years.
There’s no doubt I’ve been making slow progress in every area. The business nearly went down the drain after the great recession but is recovering nicely and I started a second business as well. Those who know me well say that I’m remarkably stronger now than I was two years ago. But when you’re going through hell, you really don’t want to be inching along – you want to speed through it .
Imagine you are crossing a very large lake in a canoe with your kid in the front and the shore is very far away you so that cannot see individual trees in the distance, just a smear of green on the horizon . You notice after a while the canoe is getting harder to paddle and you assume you’re just tired at first – then you notice water is pooling in the bottom of the canoe. Your canoe has a leak!
This is a vicious cycle, because the more water that comes in, the more difficult it is to paddle and the more fatigued you become. You start bailing water from the canoe with your hands, but you are only keeping up with the water leaking in. You must keep paddling also to keep the canoe moving towards shore, so you cannot bail full-time.
You don’t know where the hole in the canoe is so you cannot repair it – you must keep bailing. This is a little bit what it’s like to be fighting a chronic illness. What is it that you must do? You must bail water faster than it can come in.
Even though I’ve stayed focused on doing what must be done in my life, it has been very difficult to know whether I’m doing what must be done – whether I’m bailing more water than is leaking in. When you’re toxic, every effort at removing toxins stirs them up making you feel like so much garbage. So week after week, month after month and year after year I keep wondering “when will I get ahead in this game?”
My hair tests over the past couple years showed an unending flood of copper being excreted and my colon cleansing always seem to yield unending quantities of toxic slime.
All year long I’ve had high hopes that this would be my year for real recovery and I have worked for it as if my life depended on it.
Well finally, things started to change – a couple months after getting serious about sauna, for the first time, my hair test showed significant progress and improvement in October! It makes sense because I’ve been more or less following a nutritional balancing protocol to lower copper for more than two years and probably close to three. The results I saw fired me up and I started doing more colon cleansing but again I had the impression that I was not bailing fast enough. So I decided to go all the way, taking advantage of the holidays to ramp up to daily sauna and coffee enemas.
It was extremely difficult during the first two weeks – a wild roller coaster ride… but I knew it was time to do “what has to be done” since my recovery wasn’t moving as fast as I hoped.
The sauna and coffee enema takes a bit more than an hour a day but it has unleashed a torrent of detox. Everyday has been a little easier than the last until I add the next challenge. The last bump was when I accidentally tripled my borax dose 4 days ago — which turned out to be a good thing and I’m going to increase that again soon. As a result of this I’ve been alternating between fired up (sauna/caffeine), weepy, angry and despairing (stirred up neurotoxins on their way out).
I haven’t slept well for weeks now and needless to say, this is not a good way to be during the holidays… not good for my marriage at all. How could things get worse? Well, I forgot my youngest daughters birthday and only figured it out while we were out having lunch for her birthday. Uugggghhh!!!!!!
But I’m doing my best and every day is a bit smoother. I’m doing what’s right for myself and in the long run for my family too by getting ahead of my canoe’s leak.
There’s a lot more to tell and since this is the last day of the year, I want to give a more complete update. Over the past six months I have been doing very deep research into my daughter and wife’s health problems using a wide variety of diagnostic testing through our family MD including hair testing.
I just finished reading both Dr. Lawrence Wilson’s and Dr. Rick Malter’s books on nutritional balancing science in their entirety and I’ve been able to correlate all of our health problems very closely with our hair tests. You could say I have gone head over heels for nutritional balancing science and I’m planning a long blog post to document what I’ve seen and learned.
I feel very fortunate to be where I am now with a reliable roadmap for recovery in front of me (and behind me). Yes I’m disappointed that I didn’t make my recovery this year. But I can’t help feeling grateful for so much progress and confidence in what’s coming in 2017.
One other note – I had the feeling I was overdue for a liver flush so I did one a few weeks ago and it was very productive. I probably passed 25 stones that were the size of two or three peas or larger and 25 that were single pea size. I decided to stop using fenbendazole then to protect my liver and I’m using borax instead to control my fungal infection. That seems like a reasonable trade since my hair tests always show me low in boron.
By the way, part of “doing what has to be done” included turning off comments on old blog posts. I just couldn’t keep up with the volume, so now comments are open on fresh blog posts for two or three weeks (can’t remember how long).
Wishing you peace, happiness and virtuous cycles in 2017,
12 thoughts to “What must be done”
Hi Eric, thank you for a website that I keep coming back to. I was just considering liver flushes, but something made me think: Some people report a collection of a thousand or more stones after many flushes. It seems unlikely that all these stones were present to begin with. Either they are rebuilt quickly after a flush, or… these are not stones at all. Here is a possible explanation: https://www.quackwatch.com/01QuackeryRelatedTopics/flushes.html What do you think of this? Best, Daniel
Daniel, the quackwatch stuff is absolute nonsense. You need to learn from people who talk about what they’ve experienced. Not people who write about something (they have no firsthand experience with) because of their political or personal beliefs. What convinced me beyond a shadow of a doubt is watching the results of liver flushes over time. The first ones produced nasty, gnarly stones that had obviously been in my liver for decades. Every flush thereafter produced less and cleaner stones until there was almost nothing left and what was there was tiny and obviously produced recently in my liver. Then more than a year later, I got large stones again but not the ugly type because the largest would only be 18 months old. Note also that you can perform a liver flush with almost any type of oil and that doesn’t change the nature of the stones, which means QW is nonsense.
My main symptom has been hunger and hypoglycemic symptoms, especially when I try to take any supplement. It’s like my stomach is a broken cash register- I put in 1000 calories (in one sitting) and it’s only registering that I ate 10.It’s much worse at night. Often I have to get out of bed every half hour and force feed myself. Last night I had 4 protein bars, a protein shake, and a banana just so I could get to sleep. It gets worse when I lie on my back. It’s like all the food drops to the broom of my stomach and the grinding hunger sets in. I read something interesting that you posted about health food: that you thought it never reached your stomach lining because of all the yeast, mold, etc.. Is that what’s going on? Why does it not affect me during the day but come on so hard at night? And yes, I’ve tried cortisone- up to 30 mgs a day. It didn’t help at all.
I know what that hunger and insomnia is like. I still eat a small meal before bedtime. My hunger problem improved dramatically after doing some chelation, maybe 3 to 6 months of it. Have you done a hair test yet? If not, I would encourage you to get one from http://www.traceelements.com or ARL. Also, I’d encourage you to try eliminating sugar and eating more fat especially at bedtime…
Hi, have scanned a few of your blog posts in searching for my own healing. FWIW, my doctor suggested 23andme testing, and being an anal researcher to look before I leap, discovered the FDA had banned them from any *health* tests from ~late Nov. 2013 – Nov. 2015. And the FDA now only allows 36 “limited” tests as of when they returned in 2015 (vs. 254 originally) . Seems their *health* reports (at double the price) are now geared for those looking to start families… I won’t be getting it – I’m 66 yrs. old! “The nature of the information has changed, too: the focus is on “carrier status” reports.” http://gizmodo.com/23andme-is-back-in-the-genetic-testing-business-with-fd-1737917276
I will obviously also be relaying this info to my doctor; she’s probably unaware.
Actually, nothing important has changed about the 23andme testing. They still provide the raw data so you can have it analyzed elsewhere (livewello.com for example).
Wanted to mention hair analysis doesn’t work for people that don’t excrete mercury. It didn’t for me. DMSA followed by a urine test showed it high.
Terry, I wouldn’t say the hair test doesn’t work but it’s true that there are many elements that may not show (even when you have toxic levels) on a hair test if you are not healthy. Hair tests are best analyzed and understood from a systems perspective and not focusing on single elements. In my experience there are lots of other signs that point to toxicity even when it is not evident when looking at the single element. For example this might even include a *low* mercury level, or copper for that matter…
did you continue the Mitosynergy copper?
Yes I’m still taking it Mike 🙂
Eric, you are so inspiring to express in words much of what I’ve been dealing with for the past 12years. I have been on it seems a very similar journey….CF, slime mold, ropes, detox pathway issues, sulfur issues, copper, omg man are you my twin?
I’m really wanting to try fenben but concerned about me liver. I have to be really careful, but I’m getting to the point that I need to try something for the M lesions. They are getting worse. I’ve heard so many people getting improvement with fish and reshei, but can’t find the support group. Seems everyone has disappeared and boy I could use a few pointers. Any chance you can get me in contact with someone from this group?
All in all, I am grateful for my journey, although it has been so excruciating at times. So much wisdom is gained when we go through the rapids in life ( another water metaphor) and don’t collapse in spirit even if it feels our physical being is failing.
You are awesome Eric!
Thanks Bene, I just sent you an invitation to the Morgellon’s Facebook group. Hope that works. All the best to you!!
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